After years of being on various medications for ADHD and depression, after years of therapy, I was still drowning in self-doubt, self-judgement, self-loathing, imposter syndrome, fear of failure, fear of success, fear of my own power, fear of life. I had few healthy coping skills. I couldn’t finish anything without a seriously unhealthy amount of stress. I didn’t think I was worthy of love on any level, I thought I was the worst parent, the worst wife, the worst friend, sister, daughter, human. I was ready to fall asleep and never wake up.

Then I met Kelly. A guide in this lineage. I thought this woman was completely crazy AND all I wanted was to be around her. She had this light about her. She still lights up every room she enters. I would joke that I wanted to lick her so I could catch whatever she had. She would just say, “eww!” in that adorable way she does.

One day I finally agreed to the Life Activation and then to Empower Thyself a few months later, quite reluctantly.

I really thought the whole thing was insane, but I wanted what she had and this was how she said she got it, so I took a chance. I showed up arms crossed, side-eyed, but I showed up.

It’s been 6 years since my Life Activation and Initiation. I have been off all medications for almost 4 years. and I AM THRIVING. Even when life gets hard, I am still thriving.

I truly love myself and my life. I know myself more deeply than ever. I’ve unpacked, healed, and released so much of my trauma and baggage. My lows are now higher than my highs ever were. Meaning, even when I’m going through it, I’m still in joy. My happiest days before this whole Modern Mystery School journey were still lower than my current lows. That’s huge in itself.